All I Want

Went out last night. Didn't wear anything under my jeans. Told him so. Got back to his place and things got pretty heated in the kitchen. Moved into the bedroom where we had 4 straight hours of fun. Pretty much resigned myself to whatever was in store for the night. Only requirement was no sex. But I wasn't prepared for my first orgasm from a guy... or the other two that followed it! The first two were from oral, and the last from manual. I got him off twice too, manually. And we were both damn good at what we did. Most pleasurable night I've ever had in my whole fucking life. It was hot, it was intense, and it felt so damn good. I really like watching him. When he's licking me, penetrating me with his hands, when he's kissing me... hell, even watching our shadows against the wall was a huge turn-on. He's really responsive to what I like. And I don't understand this because he's been with so many other people, but I barely have to touch him and he starts moaning uncontrollably.

All because I wasn't wearing panties. Women are so powerful, even when lacking something... heh.

He lifted my skirt and kissed my stomach gently. Pulling down the waistband of my panties slowly, stopping to kiss my hipbone. He moves his tongue to my thigh, teasing me. He runs his fingers up and down my thigh as he licks the skin that connects my leg to the rest of my body. Inching closer and closer until he grazes over my panties and moves to the other thigh, licking and sucking and groping. My whole body is trembling, not knowing what to expect. I feel him pull my panties aside and lick my dripping pussy all over. His tongue finds my clit and flicks it back and forth for a moment before sucking. His tongue moves back and forth between sucking my clit and licking all around it. His hands are groping my stomach, my thighs, and then holding my pussy open as he dives in. I look down to see him at work and it just drives me wild. I don't have an orgasm but the entire time it feels like one huge orgasm anyway.

Welcome to my world... the first time a guy has ever gone down on me. So fucking amazing. Just the feeling of his tongue on my pussy was incredible. But next time, I won't let him stop until I reach an orgasm. Damn... I don't ever wanna stop touching myself now. I'm still so very horny because I haven't gotten off yet.

It would go against everything I've believed and everyone I know.

But I really, really wanna have sex with him.

I get so fucking horny all the time, and I just want to know what it feels like to have a cock ramming inside of me. To forget all inhibitions and just have some really wild sex.

Fuck. Life is fucking weird. There's this boy, but I don't really know what's going on. He's a really good hookup. But dammit, I feel bad because I guess relationships are supposed to involve emotions? And I'm not feeling them. I think I'd like it better if we took the step back down and were just friends with benefits. Fuck, I don't know. I'm really horny right now and I wanna go see him. I might just show up. And in a rush maybe I'll forget my underwear.

I was feeling a little out of it for a while. But now I go through each day feeling hornier than the day before. And I realized that there's a small list of people in this city who would more than likely be willing to help me out with that... and some of those people I would actually call up and invite over to my hot tub because I know that would lead to a little naughty fun. I will be doing this tonight or tomorrow night, because I can't take this dry spell anymore. I've been having these intense fantasies lately, mostly of being tied up and used or being fucked in a public place, and when I'm done getting off to them it leaves me squirming and panting.

I'm home alone right now. I just took 2 tequila shots. I don't like drinking tequila because it tastes like shit, but I just wanted to drink a little to forget my life for a while. Sadly, it's not really fucking with my head at all, but it is making me really horny. I think I'll go sit naked in my hot tub and pleasure myself on the jets. Maybe I'll take the good porn with me. I wish you all were here because I'd love for you to watch me. Seriously. And then join me.

Okay, fuck this. I've been getting obsessed with emotions because I haven't been horny in a few weeks. But I just found some great porn and now I'm horny as fuck. Too bad I can't get any action tonight, because that guy isn't here and I'll be hanging with his best friend tonight. That would be a death wish right there. Although his best friend is so hot! I'd definitely let him throw me up against a wall and fuck me for a while.

I'm so wet right now. I'm gonna go hop in the shower and finger myself for a while. Too bad none of you are here right now, because I'd pull you in the shower with me and let you fuck me all night long. God, I'm such a closet slut. I'm so horny right now, I just wanna fuck a guy, or a girl, or a big group of people. It's so funny, I hate being used because it messes with my emotions, but when I'm like this I just want people to rip my clothes off and throw me down and tie me up and use me all night.

I have been so fucking horny for the past few days, and I can't do anything to satisfy it!!!!

I am really craving some sexual satisfaction right now. I want to hook up with my most recent guy, but that's not possible right now. But there are two other guys right now that I really want. Unfortunately, they're best friends, and I've hooked up with one before. What is the awkward potential for that one?? But I've just built up so much sexual tension right now, I need to let it out. Self satisfaction can only do so much. Although I did manage to fuck myself with an object that was one inch in diameter, which took some work because I'm really small. Once I got it in me though, all I had to do was touch my clit once and I came instantly.

Next time I know I'm hanging out with one of my potential future hookups, I swear I won't be wearing panties under my jeans. That'll make things interesting.

I've always found comfort in my little habits. And masturbation is no exception. This may sound surprising, but I've been masturbating regularly ever since I was 6 years old. Most of the time I'll do it whenever I'm horny and need to get off, but sometimes I'll start rubbing my pussy even when I'm not that horny. I guess it's just comforting to have my hand massaging my clit. Of course, after a bit of teasing myself, I get horny pretty quick. But another comforting habit I have is sucking my thumb. And it's never been anything sexual... until recently. For about the past month, whenever I put my thumb in my mouth, I just get this huge sexual comfort and I also get very wet. Maybe I subconsciously want to suck someone's dick? I've never done it before, but the thought isn't as appalling as it use to be.

I've been having some pretty great orgasms lately. I can only get off from clitoral stimulation, so I've been combining that with penetration so that when I do have sex, I'll be able to climax from it. But I find that I have intense orgasms when I combine it like that, and they last longer too. I'll reach around and stick a few fingers in my pussy from behind, and fuck myself like that while I rub my clit. And when I fantasize about my awesome hookup boy at the same time, the orgasms I get just make me wanna cry out, and I've never been a vocal person sexually.

Maybe I obsess over all this stuff a little much. Whenever I'm alone, all I daydream about is hooking up. But as much as I just wanna fuck someone, I won't do it. It even sucks just making out with someone, because I have this whole romantic framework around it. I at least want to think that the guy wants me... I mean, all a girl wants is to feel loved and desired. But most of the time I feel like guys are hooking up with me because I'm convenient. I'm a girl, I'm there, I'm willing to hook up. There's probably some element of attraction to me, but if you stuck any semi-attractive girl in front of them, that would do just as well.